3 years and counting

Well, I have to say..I wasn't sure where I was going when I started the story. I just knew I wanted to start it. I think I was actually having a bad moment in the kitchen too, and thats where the story starts..in the kitchen. And..well, as she had someone who could do it better..so did I and perhaps that's the kernel where Kyle came from.

And  like that person, he could make me just as mad or happy. I always felt though there was a closeness between Ellie and Kyle that she'd never have with any other male. It wouldn't be perfect. It wouldn't be beautiful, even. Yet something more than she'd ever want to admit. Of course, after the start of it..and then later making Kyle more of flawed individual with a not so wonderful past than I really ever meant too..still all was not lost when they became step-siblings.

She has not always agreed about who he liked or dated or whatever. He was never fond of some of her boyfriends, either. Although, I do plan to bring Roxie back into the story. I'm not sure how I came about that because I had to leave a little tale that I had done to my own mom..and then I got to thinking..hmm..it is a small world.

Even so Roxie is different. Perhaps. They will just have to find out for themselves. Although, I'm sure she is more dear to me than I like to admit. Honestly, I found this picture and thought of her, being in the story. I know she hasn't been in it enough. Hopefully, I'll change that soon.

Monday notes

Sorry..no genderswap today.

I'm totally in love with Nicholas Dane.

Who is that, you might ask? Well, he's a character from Melvin Burgess' new novel Nicholas Dane. Nic is just 14, and his world is turned upside down. It has its "about a boy" theme. A boy and his single mother, who croaks. I won't say how, but everyone seems to know but him. His mother hated her family, didn't like his dad. So it was just the two of them. There is prospects of Jenny taking him, who is his Mom's best friend, but she might be a drug counselor with a drug problem. Then there is Amanda, a year younger than him, his best friend Jeremy's little sister who does her best to console him. And he's so letting her.

Naturally, I could see Sam Earle in the role, but he'd have to go Brit for it. Totally.

crackship fiction - some of my own.

I’m stepping through the door
And I’m floating in a most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today
-David Bowie

Eric had this time coming to him. He'd taken extra shifts and worked the January holidays, as well. He was due some time off. So he was taking it, to see Syd. Of course, she wasn't there to find him at the airport. He hadn't told her he was coming. As it was she wasn't taking his phone calls. Just his luck she wouldn't be home. All this way for nothing. He was being pessimistic, yet bold. He'd had enough with the sobing and letting the cat fend for herself. He'd finally cleaned the place up, gave Cory the keys to the place to check up on the cat and well, he was here. Scared of the unknown, but ready to face it.

And there she was in the hallway. Of course, he blinked. Had he forgot what she looked like? That couldn't be Syd? Could it?

"What are you doing here, Eric?" Well, this person knew his name, but she didn't have make up, and she was wearing thick black rimmed glasses. And..and she had zits. She wasn't wearing anything becoming, either. All frumpy and a little sad. She had a basket of laundry with her.

"Uh, to see you, of course." He winced, thinking that was the worst line ever.

"I can't believe it." She kind of smiled.

"Why wouldn't you return my phone calls?" He stared at her.

"I'm sorry. Its just-"

A male voice called for her then, behind the door of her apartment.

Eric's eyes lit.

"Can we meet somewhere?" She quickly said. "There's this diner a block away from here. Clark's diner, can you wait for me there?"

"OK." He said quietly not wanting to start trouble. Eric turned quickly and walked out of the building to the place where she said to go. He didn't know what to think. She never mentioned anyone. What was going on? He wasn't sure what to imagine. Who was that guy? He hurried to the diner and found himself a booth at the back of the place to wait.

He downed the ice water the waitress gave him and ordered coffee.

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notes to my self..I suppose

I am getting some weird ideas for stories. Just not sure if they'll work..exactly..but I would like to explore a few "sexual" orientations I never read about. Truth be told, I might even know some people like this..and not even know it. Well, they won't even be reading this, anyway. By the looks of it, very little traffic on this blog.

But sometimes, I get ideas from TV shows I watch that never got there.

I'm just so sad that PRETTY LITTLE LIARS is over ..until June. At least I know "caleb" is coming back. I'm not sure I like it... how they left the show last night. Then SKINS was so good. I hope MTV brings it back and more people will watch. It is a different Tony & Michelle. Now if Degrassi could only make Eli darker. He does say some strange things.

Then I start to think about my own characters. How Doyle is growing up, keeping his religion as well..as new people he meets. He's not a major character..but he might be this summer. We'll see.

Oh...and Ellie..I know I didn't want to make her a Mom so quickly...but I did. And I guess the Mom factor really gets a shake or two. I wanted to write about young mothers. Although, she is far from being a teen Mom..or anything. I guess a part of her is like an Aunt I had ..who put up with her husband's little extra beggage. I still don't know how she did it. But Lonnie will be back.

Monday Genderswap

by Lalaisl0ve

jesse eisenberg → andrew edison (annie)
leighton meester → justine winger (jeff)
mark salling → bryan perry (britta)
olivia thirlby → terry barnes (troy)
kristen bell → amanda neilson (abed nadir)
kathryn joosten → patty hawthorne (pierce)
dule hill → shawn bennett (shirley)
sandra oh → señora chang (señor)


This would be an amazing cast. It might not be all fun..but imagine the drama....

SKINS screen caps

Dave the Teacher (David Reale) is kind of annoying, but I am glad he's on MTV's Skins. He was in Mean Girls as well ans Queer as Folk.

This is in the opening creits. The first episode when Tony sent Stan to a drug dealer. Such a lost puppy.

Stan and his long. Watching Tony with Michelle. In this version, Stan knew Michelle before Tony. They grew up together.

Another screen shot in the opening credits of Stan 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Crackship fiction

There was ice in the rain. It was hitting the windshield hard. Honestly, Gage was glad Spencer came to pick him up. He shivered there in the car.

"What was that all about?" Gage couldn't resist to ask. Was there actually a female in Spencer's life? He hadn't expected it.

"What?" Spencer turned on the engine to the old Oldsmobile which was a bit of a tank. Next he put on the heat.

"You know, that girl?" Gage rubbed his damp shoulders. Then put on the seatbelt.

"Lucy?" He remained mute then.

"Yeah, were you in..a threesome, or something?" Gage joked.

Spencer almost pulled out in front of someone. Actually, it was Lucy and some fellow she was with. Spencer looked startled.

"I wouldn't say that." He said under his breath. They were on their way soon enough. It wasn't that long of a ride to Spencer's.

Gage could sense Spencer was sad, but he brought in a bulk of the groceries. After all, Spencer had grocery shopped. They put the bags of groceries on the table. Spencer put the milk and eggs in the fridge, right away.

Gage could see drops of rain coming off Spencer's hair. He had been splat with a snowflake that melted in his hair. Gage looked over his shoulder and saw the flakes coming down harder out the big window in the livingroom. Perhaps the flakes wouldn't turn into a white blanket, but it was covering signs of spring, so significantly. Yeap, it was snowing.

Gage shivered slightly. He didn't want to ask Spencer anymore questions. Evidently, Spencer had had to share someone with her. He couldn't help but want to be closer to Spencer. There were questions he'd meant to ask. But somehow the moment wouldn't last that long. He touched Spencer's face, drew him in.

It was like an entire different world, seeing Spencer up close. When he found him lips, he had to let Spencer know that he didn't want to share him with anyone.

WHERE DOES THE TIME GO

a bromance

I know everytime I mention that to my one friend..it's always.."oh you mean, like brokeback mountain..."

As if that were funny.

But I'm trying to work toward that with Sam and Elliot. I'm not sure which is easier to write about friendships. Its always a learning experience for me. But of course, Elliot might not always want to hear what Sam has to say. And would Elliot really know how to set Sam up for anything. I think of them as two guys who thought they knew everything in high school, but once they got out, well..it's a different world.

wee bit wednesday

Where can I start. I am so tired. But when I try to sleep, I just can't. Maybe I'm listening to too many sirens. I dunno. Its warming up. More crime happens. Then all this sadness with the catastrophe in Japan which seems to be getting worse by the day. So much loss of life. Its so shocking. Then you hear on the news how we'd be so ready for such a bad thing to happen here. I'm not so sure of that.

My friend who lost a loved one in her family a few weeks ago, is yet again facing more heartache. Her father put her favorite pet to sleep because the dog bit her step-sister's baby. The thing is, it was just a little bite. And the toddler was aggravating the dog. Its like the step-sister gets her way about everything. I just feel so bad for my friend. I'm not sure what I can do for her. That happened Monday. So its been a very sad week.

I may have to start walking to work because of gas prices. This means I need a good pair of shoes. The sneakers I have now, have holes in them. I don't know where everything goes in my room. I pack it away and I can't find it again. I had some really solid all weather shoes from TOMS that I loved now I can't find them anywhere, so I'm going to have to break down and get some shoes that will last. I'm on my feet a lot.

Hopefully, it won't be a major thing about walking. I love to walk. I have one friend who walks a really long way to work. When she lived at home, it was actually a quicker walk, but she wanted to move in with her boyfriend. I'm not sure how she dealt with i,t in the dead of winter. We don't talk like we used too. Anyway, sometimes, I meet people I haven't seen in ages while walking. Then I see some people, I'd rather not bump into. Of course, I keep hoping I'll meet someone who used to be in our neighborhood, but he moved away to the University. I saw his Mom not long ago, and she visits him in the middle of the week, sometimes. She's having a very hard time, letting him go. I can just see him having so much fun on his own. Otherwise, he's home helping her with five little kids.

So anyway, that's my priority to find some good sneakers. Of course, I've been thinking about this for months and still no luck yet. And I guess I need some matching socks too.

genderswap monday

nargles tumblr

It might be a stretch, but then Jesse is good at playing Mr. Know it All. But would he be a bitch about it? And how would his "Herman" handle Ron? Something to think about on this Monday morning.

crackship fiction

All right, Rafe might have been dreamy, last night, perhaps in the wee hours of the morning, but Dil woke up extra early just so he could watch Cass sleep on the couch. Dil was like a hyena of some sort, circling his prey. Make that a jackal. He was hungry. So much, it made him wish Cass could just sleep with him once.

Really, Cass was quite beautiful. He was at such peace, on his side. The blanket barely covering him in his wife beater and gray track pants. Dil wanted him so bad. He could go back to his room and have some time alone with himself, but he couldn't. No, he liked creeping up on him and sliding behind Cass. Dil was just in his briefs. He edged up slowly almost breathing in his ear. Dil just smiled. This was right where he wanted to be. Now if only, something could really happen. Right here. Right now. Dil knew he could only dream about it. All the ways he could have Cass. Preferable naked for starters. Dil could dream, couldn't he? He just wanted to breathe him in. It would be so slow. Nobody would get hurt. It would be totally awesome.....

"JESUS CHRIST!" Cass came unwound from his peaceful sleep and stood there looking back at Dil as if it were worst, from before. "Keep the fuck away from me!" Cass scowled. "I don't want to hear it. I've heard it all before! I know what you are! You fucking homo!" Cass' eyes were squinted tight, but even in anger Dil found him so amazingly beautiful.

"What?" Dil was all Mr. Relaxed.

"You were disgusting! Don't ever put your fucking junk next to my buttocks, again, fuckwad!" Cass stomped off to the bathroom then to do his morning business and brush his teeth. Next thing Dil knew Cass was back to get on his sneakers.

He looked at the time. Then gave Dil a soured look as if he needed Dil to apologize, but Dil didn't want to. Then Dil saw what a huff Cass was in.

"All right, I'm sorry, I promise I won't ever do it again." Dil's eyes watered.

"It won't ever happen again because I'm not coming back!" Cass screamed back at him, grabbing his skateboard on the way. He was off to get the Whitfield kids sent to school then classes.

Dil watched him leave. It was after Cass slammed the door shut that Dil began to sob in his hands.

No way was Dil going to explain to anyone his actions. People might have thought he was a wild and crazy dude half the time, but really he wasn't. He found himself quite boring. Most people would. They did.

He lived in his uncle's old gas station as it was. There weren't even any gas pumps there, anymore. It was an old crappy place that had been there since the 50's. Now it was a crap hole that developers were so in hopes to get a hold of to make a parking lot. As of yet, Dil was holding his own in his man cave. He had a place to work on his cars and yeah, he could say it was pretty sweet. Maybe.

But it was a lonely life. It always had been. He'd been the offspring of a single Mom, who had a thing for truck-drivers. He hadn't seen her since his high school graduation, and he was pretty sure she was drunk then. Yeah, he was that kid all his relatives felt sorry for, and they knew he would never amount to much. Needless to say, he was doing his part to fit the bill. He didn't even have a real job. Just odd stuff that came up. Sometimes, he'd look in the mirror and wonder how in the hell he made it through the month? Usually, his uncle gave him enough to get by on. It wasn't much, but he managed. He supposed it could have been worse. He could be living on the streets.

Naturally, Dil undid everything Cass had tried to put some order too. He didn't like things clean. He wanted it a mess. It was like art. He thought. Confusion setting in. There was a beauty to the chaos. Of course, it would have been nice if some one figured out he was actually a genius. But he guess that might never happen. A lot of things might never happen. The more he thought about it now.

Nix him and Cass. He'd scratched that one off. He hoped he hadn't lost him forever. He'd give Cass some time to cool off. Surely, he'd be around for something. And Rafe. He found himself laughing about that now. The dude was so shit faced. If only Cass hadn't been around, God knows what might have happened.

It was enough to keep him smiling. Didn't know why he'd even smile now because soon enough, he wouldn't be smiling, but thinking just how miserable his life really was. It was coming. It would be here in a few hours or even a few minutes. Sadness would sweep him up, and he'd be crying like a baby, hugging his pillow wishing he could choke on some pills or something.

His stomach roared with hunger pains, but he didn't pay it any mind. He turned on the TV and sat there just in his briefs watching some talk show he couldn't make heads or tails out of. He heard a bang on the door. But he figured it was somebody telling him he needed to move. But someone kept banging on the door. Maybe it was Cass. But he knew he was probably at cooking class or at the Whitfields. He was on a tight schedule. Of course, it was the middle of the afternoon. Perhaps.

Dil finally got up to see who it was. It was Rafe.

Dil half smiled as he looked at him. It was really a surprise.

"You knew where I lived?" That was a shock. Dil blinked.

"Don't you remember, you helped me with that car I could never get running at the shop," Rafe nodded.

"Oh, that." Dil winced. It all blended together after awhile. He was there for a lot of stuff he chose to forget because he didn't think it was worth remembering.

"Yeah, and we had to come back here and get some tools." Rafe told him as he came in. "So what are you doing?"

"Nothing." Dil scowled.

"You want to get something to eat with me?" Rafe asked. He was all sincere. Dil wanted to tell him, no. Feeling it was best not to do these sort of things with him because he'd be wanting more than just this out of the blue moments.

"Yeah." Dil smirked. He stood there looking at Rafe.

"Well, you can't go, looking like that." Rafe told him.

"All right." Dil just nodded, looking in the floor then for something to put on his scrawny body.

"You're not on meth or anything, are you?" Rafe grabbed him by the face then and looked him right in the eye.

Dill stood still. This was making him a little nervous.

"I knew this dude on speed. He never got fat." Rafe informed him.

"I'm not on speed. All right." Dil gritted then, wishing Rafe would let go of his face. But as it was he kept looking at him, and Dil was on the brink of caving in. This was so not fair. So not the way he expected. Having Rafe's hands across his face. His thumbs just below the whites of his eyes.

Rafe kissed him.

From Cass&Cady

Its Friday

Glee was great this past week. Of course, it might all belong to Santana and Britney where the drama is concerned. It'll be interesting where this goes from here. And Holly being back. Then all these other things are spilled about relationships and Kurt gets a great talk from his dad over sex and boys. Of course, I hate the fact that Blane complained about Kurts 'raw' sexual appeal when he sang. I just gotta wonder if Blane is the one for Kurt. However, the sweetest moment came with Finn & Quinn. I loved that scene. Maybe it was just the bed.

Then there is that intimate moment that was on MTV's SKINS a few weeks between Michelle and Stan. Hopefully, this isn't too up close and personal. But they have to be my favorite couple not going together.

On another note. Such a frightening day. Especially, on the otherside of the world. My prayers and thoughts are to all those who were hit by the horrible earthquake and aftermath. I know this is lame, but I'm wondering if the Japanese actor Kenichi Matsuyama is OK. I looked on his Twitter and he mentioned something about he might die today. I have no idea if that's really his twitter. His latest movie is GANTZ where he plays Masuro Kato. Of course, he'll always be L to me from the Death Note movies.

Also Norwegian Wood looks like a cool movie to look for too.

wee bit of wed, with ellie

he's really quite beautiful

I guess you know where I've been.

OK, he (Alex P.) was perfect for the part in Beastly. He's so damn arrogant without even trying. But then again, he's British. Right? I think. Doesn't matter. Guys like his "kyle" exist. Of course, I have a cousin who can be all so perfectly snobbish. That glare. You think he's mad at the world and everyone in it. Including me. Then I'll find him in the kitchen talking to my mom about books and poetry. And he wonders why he doesn't have a girlfriend. That's the kind of A.P. he reminds me of.

Anyway, it isn't always easy to find the beauty in a person. Its like you have to take the time to study them. Even so, they evolve. Its as if you've been tricked. Well, some times. But if that individual can't make you feel comfortable. What really is the point?

we would be something like this, perhaps...maybe..

Although, I can get off on conversation. And I've wondered from time to time if Asperger Guy could be my boyfriend..even if he has this autism. But I don't want to be there if he goes off on some one..like me. We just talk about writing. Mostly. He's possibly a compulsive liar, but I wouldn't tell him that. As it is, my friend told me most guys with Aspergers are gay. Which I won't even go there. I doubt that's true. It really doesn't matter to me. A.G. is just a friend. And..well, he kind of... is a beast. But I've seen how he reacted to this hurt squirrel in the park once. Even if he can be loud and angry and annoying sometimes, he's got a good heart.

He's no Alex Pettyfer. But when I think of a beast..well, this guy I know would definitely fit the part.

Happy Ash Wednesday!

P.s..I won a rumba watch from Cafe Fashionista!

its getting better - MTV's Skins

I gotta say, I'm liking MTV's SKINS more and more. At first I had to keep comparing Sid (from the original) to Stan..which is a hybrid character. But I think I like Stan and Michelle's friendship more than I did Sid and Michelle.

 

First of all, you can see Stan's rush of hormones and wanting all that "feel good" instant moments, yet he backs off and sees how he has to be a friend of Michelle's too..all along, he's actually 'in love' with Caity ..worshiping her from afar. He sees her with a new guy who is of course an athlete.

Last night's episode about Daisy (Camille Cresencia-Mills) had me tears by the end. Her character is based on Jai who is musical and hooks up with Chris, but in the MTV's version she and Abbud Ron Mustafa hook up as friends with benefits. She is the one who knows the right thing to say. She is there to pick up the pieces of her sister and her Dad. Family comes first for her, but a little bit of her wants to have some fun too. Yet Abbud is showing he's got skills as an actor. Even if they aren't going to be a couple he still stands up for Daisy. He didn't back down from her father. All you hear is the bad part of this show, but in reality this show has a rawness of showing a real family and the value of it. This is Cammille's big break and she is definitely working it on the screen.

a wonderful family moment

Monday Genderswap

Kat and Rachel genderswap

Vampire Diaries//Penn Badgley as Elena Gilbert and Katherine Pierce. He could be called Elliot Gilbert and Kyle Pierce. He could handle Stefan and Damien. Don't you think?

I so think Penn would get more action on Vampire Diaries. He would have some fun being two characters. I can just see his smile now. I'm sure he'd grow more as an actor than being stuck as Dan, day in and day out on Gossip Girl. He's just the same old Dan. He needs to get out there and live. Possibly, bite a few, too. I think he's got the teeth for it.

crackship fiction

I see some wonderful graphics. And well, I had to really figure out what I was looking at on Tumblr. I guess. Then it occurred to me. God, I do this all the time. Think of actors I'll probably never see a movie of these two as a couple. But you never know.

Recently, I've been catching up at Sarah and Lucy. A series of stories my friend Ivy writes. At the moment, the two friends who became friends because of a local band 'freaknoids'..are dating brothers. OK..living with two guys that are brothers. So Jamie Campbell Bowar (Todd) and Alex Pettyfer (Craig) are brothers. Of course, they are different from night and day. Todd's mysterious brother rolls into town. He really doesn't even want to see his brother, who at that time was living with his boyfriend. So Craig hides out at Lucy's (Todd's studio). Finally, when Craig finds out what the deal is with Todd and Lucy, well, he bumps into Sarah (Lyndsy Fonseca). However, all this time Sarah has been trying to get over her ex-girlfriend Cameron. But she's reluctant to take Craig in, since Todd split from his boyfriend to take care of pregnant Lucy. Still Craig is a mystery. He might not be as nice as he's cracked up to be.

fill in the blank friday

Day 4 - Your favorite character G2 - Freddie. Dunno why. Maybe he seemed more of someone I could connect too. All though, he did a few shitty things.

Day 5 - Your least favorite character G2 - Cook. I never liked him. He was so hyper. Mean. Very hard to watch the things he did to his mates.

Day 6 - Your favorite character overall - Tony. Nick Hoult. He's such a fine actor with such an amazing range of acting skills. He made Tony such a sociopath. And then after the bus hit him..how he changed. Yet still had old Tony to fall back on.

Day 7 - Your favorite episode - the Episode where Tony went to save his sister, Effy.

Day 8 - Your least favorite episode - Cook being an ass. But that was in several episodes.

Day 9 - Your favorite scene -Freddie finding Effy in the water. I loved watching him run.

zach porter

I dunno why I like him so much. He seems sweet to his fans. He doesn't seem to have to try as hard as J.B. I hope he goes into acting. I miss John Robinson so much.

Zach is in Allstars Weekend. And yeah, maybe he's too Disney, but oh well.

Day 3 - Your least favorite character G1.

Effy. Really, she was so anti-social. And the things that Tony had to put up with her. It was a peculiar relationship. She was very hard to feel sorry for when she got in the situations she did. You had to wonder just how bright her future really was.

wee bit of wednesday with ellie

1. I'm sick. A cold. I couldn't sleep at all last night. So miserable. But better today.
2. I wore my huge bad hair day hat today. A tam I made. Red with a blue stripe. I feel like an artist in that hat. I must be drugged on cold meds at the moment. Yawn....
3. Keegan Allen on Pretty Little Liars is my favorite at the moment.











Day 2 - Your favorite character G1.

Maxxie. Some say Tony made him, but what if it was his character who made Tony. I loved how he put Tony off and yet Maxxie was the most gentle in the bunch. He was there for Tony like no other. Its said that Mitch couldn't act. But I found him playful and sweet. Terribly endearing to put up with what he had with his mates and with life.

I am so hungry for these - chocolate chip cookies

Ingredients

    * 1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter
    * 3/4 cup packed dark brown sugar
    * 3/4 cup sugar
    * 2 large eggs
    * 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
    * 1 (12-ounce) bag semisweet chocolate chips, or chunks
    * 2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
    * 3/4 teaspoon baking soda
    * 1 teaspoon fine salt

Directions

Evenly position 2 racks in the middle of the oven and preheat to 375 degrees F. (on convection setting if you have it.) Line 2 baking sheets with parchment paper or silicone sheets. (If you only have 1 baking sheet, let it cool completely between batches.)

Put the butter in a microwave safe bowl, cover and microwave on medium power until melted. (Alternatively melt in a small saucepan.) Cool slightly. Whisk the sugars, eggs, butter and vanilla in a large bowl until smooth.

Whisk the flour, baking soda and salt in another bowl. Stir the dry ingredients into the wet ingredients with a wooden spoon; take care not to over mix. Stir in the chocolate chips or chunks.

Scoop heaping tablespoons of the dough onto the prepared pans. Wet hands slightly and roll the dough into balls. Space the cookies about 2-inches apart on the pans. Bake, until golden, but still soft in the center, 12 to 16 minutes, depending on how chewy or crunchy you like your cookies. Transfer hot cookies with a spatula to a rack to cool. Serve.

Store cookies in a tightly sealed container for up to 5 days.
Comfort foods from the Food Network.

Day 1 - Your favorite generation 

The first generation of SKINS, of course. The original cast was amazing. Stunning stories. So much depth. I loved the series from the first episode.