So Derrick was really down. I think he really really wants to be a dad, but its like Josie’s Father makes him out to be a criminal, or something. It was awful, how her Dad made him feel. He was so emotional. You would have thought he raped her or something. That’s not Derrick.
I bet if anything … It was Josie. All Josie. I dunno what she did. But it couldn’t be Derrick’s fault. Never.
I’ve never seen him like this. Here I was worried about Josie, and..and I should have been thinking of Derrick and what he’s going through. Its his kid, he has to give up. How awful is that?
He cried. I didn’t think it was possible. Cause, you know, he’s Derrick. Nothing bothers him.
OK..yeah, he was so depressed when his sister was shot and killed in her own kitchen. But he’s still at her house with her sister’s boyfriend, Asa.
Honestly, I just don’t know if I’d want to be there. If..if I knew something like that happened. I dunno. Maybe I would.
Derrick never talks about his sister.
But I’m there for him. I am. I want to do..be... what ever Derrick needs. I have to. I just do. He’s..my boyfriend.
Of course, when I saw him I was all..”I hope Josie doesn’t hate me….” I dunno why I said that. I’m sure I’m the least of her problems. Its just..deep down..I don’t want anybody hating me. That’s the way I am.
I want everyone to like me. And sometimes, I go out of my way. According to my Mom who keeps telling me its OK if everyone doesn’t like me. But..I’m Henry..I’m everyone’s friend. Except for jocks and most everyone in the drama club.
Yeah, as if I was going to take over and push someone out of their spot. They are a snooty bunch. So, that is why I have not tried out in any of their play productions. Somehow, Derrick is really tight in their circle. But then again, he is talented. I’m just a drummer in band.
Here I go again..God, I’m not feeling sorry for myself. I really want Derrick to be OK. I just want to see him happy. And that might be a long time coming.